I'm afraid of losing my best friend... I made a mistake, apologized to him but he's not talking to me... I think he realized I have feelings for him (I'm a girl) but to what extent can someone be hurt by the fact of not being told that he's loved? Is not that cruel for me? for himself? If he's so upset by the fact that I indirectly criticized an old romance of his (he was seeing a married woman) and obviously at the time when that happened we weren't friends yet, should I tell him anyways that I love him?
Do you see my point? I know that I was wrong about it, I shouldnt have said a word about his past relationships but I was jealous and well...ended up saying, writing via all the virtual online media avaliable my indirect comments...He was mad at me, of course...What I did, it's not right, I should have told him what I thought of his old story with that woman with whom he's still in touch...and that story...I dunno, to what extent is it finished? He says it's over but I dont believe that, she's the kind of woman who doenst care about being married but anyways is stalking any man available who can make up for what her husband is not providing her with.
He was my friend,above all,but also the man I fell for. I feel really sad that now he's not talking to me, I'm sorry for it and told him so, explained my reasons for that, but still he says he feels I'm not being honest... He's right in part, I didnt tell him the truth, the reason why I did it was that I'm in love with him...I felt jealous and there you go... made a huge mistake... But I feel bad because this feeling for him shouldnt have happened in the first place, why did I fell for him? with so many men out there, why him? I know, it happens and that's it.
So, please, I would appreciate any kind of advice to deal with this..I wont be insisting on him since he doesnt feel like talking right now. He says it will ease away but I dunno...We already had little quarrels before but this is a big one... What should I do? Wait until he feels like talking again? Should I write a letter to him telling what's REALLY going on?
I guess many girls in love with their male friends may have done something like this, right? Boys also in love with their female friends may have felt this way, I guess.
Thanks for reading.