I feel that I am a complete failure at every level possible and imaginable. I'm 23 years old and I have a 3 year college degree that I hate. I began college with the will and power to complete it, by the midst of the course I began to really dislike it but giving up wasn't part of the plan so even not happy about it I continued until completion. This was 2 years ago and since I have not been able to find a job. In fact I'm not allowed to practice what I studied for because initially the course was to be six years but a new European accordance brought it to 3 plus 2 for a master’s degree and to legally practice I would need those full 6 years. So far I'm a failure. Let’s fail me more. In my 23 years of existence I have never ever had an experience with a girl. I don't know what its like to be cared for. I've sure tried but I always end up failing drastically. In fact the last time I gave all of me to someone, that someone embarrassed me publicly in front of friends, colleges and strangers. That’s what I get for loving someone. Sometimes I think I'm odd looking but other times I see me as a normal looking young guy. My eyes and vision fail me too. I have these weird bulging eyes (possibly the number one turn off for girls) and I have a lot of vision floaters. I've been in a gym for a year and still I haven't gained muscle or strength and my belly fat insists on staying. Also this past year I paid a math tutor to teach me algebra and trigonometry, I applied for an exam and today I got the results and obviously I failed miserably. So all I make out of my life is utter complete failures. I live with my parents and I own nothing. I don't have that good old friend to call me once and while for a coffee or hang out. I have hi dreams and one of them is the air force. The air force! I must be stupid to even consider it.

Mediocre college degree

No job

No girlfriend

No self esteem

Ugly

FAILURE

So I don’t know what to do or who to turn to for any type of comfort.